Hey, if it helps any, your music is amazing. Keep it up. (But who am I to say anything, I couldn't hum a tune to save my life, let alone sing. Composing is so much higher I can't comprehend it) I'm glad to have run across your music. There are many good people, we just don't tend to speak up as much as we should. So please, continue helping people, who knows when you may be helping an angel?
I look forward to anything you create. Continue being mindblowing.
Krichotomy
The most frightening thing is realizing how fragile human mind/will/emotions are. The times I go through things such as what you mention here are the times I come to see how "lacking" my own self is and feel the need for some greater purpose than "live a good life and leave a legacy", some greater existence than humanity.
The pain hurts, I know. But I am glad for the lessons pain teaches me, even if it drowns me first.
Over time it'll wash away, again. And maybe you'll be stronger than you were before.
Troisnyx
"Greater existence than (bare) humanity" is right -- I've always held, in my heart, life everlasting. But although we've got to lift our crosses to be able to merit a place up there, I really cannot take it when my back is broken in the process.
At any rate, I thank God that I was able to pray and sleep well last night, and remember that there were people up there praying for me.