You've told me of various things in your life that you were struggling with, but I didn't think it was THIS bad. Yow... Now I see why you push yourself so hard. You're constantly under fire, whether it be from people around you or folks on the sites you visit.
There's not much else I can say other than you've got a drive no one else can even come close to having. You've got that spirit, and it's taken you much further than anybody could have ever thought. Hell, it's taken you further than I can even hope to dream for myself. Keep striding forth, and fuck all of the naysayers who try to bring you to your knees. Instead, bring them to THEIR knees, with your words, with your creations, with your soul. Should you need any support, call on me at any time.
[Had to delete and repost because of missing words. I'm too nitpicky for my own good...]
AceMantra
This might not mean much coming from someone you don't know, but I deeply wish you the best. I can't even begin to think how difficult it must have been for you, and how difficult it still is. I can however relate to the painful mental struggles of major depression and suicidal thoughts.
Remind yourself that you are a talented person because it's true. Remember to look back on what you've made once in a while, and recognize those achievements. You've been through so much, and you know what? You're still here. You're still fighting despite all the bullshit. It's inspiring and worth celebrating. Keep fighting, and don't feel like you have to do so alone.
You can do this.
Troisnyx
Thank you. I hope my current stuff reflects the talent I have, if at all.