For the last ten years, it's been me putting in the graft and not getting much out of it. I was determined never to draw again, and @Sabtastic approached me and spoke with me. She, too, had felt what I'd felt of being completely let down by people and events.
I'm going to do what she's done; no contests. I will admit that not drawing has helped me to concentrate more on the music, but every so often, the Sharpies beckon to me. If I put up anything from here on out -- and that's a big IF -- it's only for me. I have been learning fast for someone who started out here on NG as not knowing proportions, depth, and most art theory apart from colour theory, and I intend for that to continue, if at a reduced pace right about now due to the intensifying music work.
As someone who had suffered quite badly as a result of my parents picking apart and tearing up my music, and mocking my art (both on a frequent basis), I don't often know the best way of working through and around the pain. But I don't want my art, or my music for that matter, to get the usual art college snobbery shown at it. I'm not that kind of person.
Any recognition from here on out is going to be classed as a bonus to work that I feel compelled to do. Work that may not bring reward, but cannot be stopped due to the pull it has on me from time to time. The act of sharing anything with others is bound to bring pain, as it has with my childhood and adolescence, but I cannot create art for the sake of myself alone. It is work that may not bring reward, but I feel ought to be shared anyway.
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MchectorII
Thanks for the tag,mam.While I'm not wise enough to give anyone any advice on this 'heavy' subject,I'll just do my best to put my thoughts into words here.And I'm glad that people here had been giving you advice and support you need.
I'm sure most,if not every artist has faced some kind of fear or doubt when they put out their work for the public to see but that's just the reality of it.It isn't easy to get over this problem as it's something that feels like it won't go away but sometimes all it needs is a different perspective.From what you wrote,you've been through some rough times;your parents are harsh in the way they deal with your work but maybe there's more to the picture,something behind all their rather crude treatment of your hard work.Did you try talking to them about it to find out why they don't like it?Is it because they aren't art lovers?Or if they are,was it that your work didn't meet their expectations?I can almost feel your pain there,the closest people who you thought you could turn to for some encouragement ends up doing the opposite-crushing you,your enthusiasm for your craft,childhood dreams,hopes,leaving you confused and hurt.
Sadly,it's the same with the world where you show your works to but at least,those who would love to crush others works and confidence are only a minority.These are people who just pick any fault,no matter how insignificant,in any work and with today's technology,they will make it look like it's a big deal.Artists,past,present and future had,have and will have this problem.no matter what,because it's what makes us humans.Back to the point,you're right to say that 'sharing anything with others is bound to bring pain' but it's more than just pain,there'll be support from like minded individuals who might have been in your shoes or worst and who knows,when these people see your work,they'll be encouraged to start their journeys.I mean,most,of not all successful people have been inspired by others,so why not be the same?If you love what you do and you also know it's going to be a struggle,set your mind to it,grind your teeth and just press on and be the light to others like you.You also know that doing what you love also has to involve 'green' rewards and that would mean getting hired by someone or company but let's suppose you're still uncomfortable with putting your work,there's a few ways to still get noticed and maybe a job.One is to have friends working in the industry you're aiming for and you can impress them with what you can do and if you're capable enough,you can be get recommended for a position there.Another method is to 'open' yourself and let your works be noticed.That means creating and sharing your works in portfolios on websites with communities of people who share the same interest with you.This is not easy to do,based on the problems you wrote above but it all still depends on you.If you want to have a future working in a music/art industry,then being open to the world outside would mostly be the option to get there.
That's all I can think of for now,but thanks for tagging me,though personally,I'm not the kind of person one would turn to for advice,so pardon me if any point I brought up may be flawed in any way.I'll be happy to get your reply and thank you for your time!