D-Day is on Thursday.

Please pray / send some good thoughts my way that it all goes okay. Thanks for your support, everyone.

Some of you are probably already celebrating New Year's Day; for me, I have less than an hour to go before the clock strikes midnight. While I'm at it, and listening to an audio project of mine for the sake of ambience, I'd like to write my thoughts down here.

I was expecting 2015 to be my least creative year because of all the dealings I'd had not only with the Home Office, but also the tribunal system, to ensure my safety. (Those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, refer to this earlier post of mine.) This year saw two adjourned hearings and a whole lot of frustration and shot nerves. It was also dampened by Seán being diagnosed with essential tremors -- a progressive condition similar to Parkinson's, and a whole lot of other things besides that I probably won't go into here.

Yet, it has been the year where I've given the heaviest output, musically and otherwise. 2015 has seen my highest number of audio submissions and art submissions to date. I'd made some background music in anticipation for @CartoonCoffee's and @glitchs2d's game project called Eden Blue, as well as @Hoeloe's project called Song of the Firefly. I'd also gone down to Comic Con this year and hopefully, getting my music out there might draw in some listeners. My best track for this year, Uplift, was played by BBC Radio Lancashire, something I cannot help but celebrate to this day.

I managed to collab with @Squidly and @dlxrevolution on another game jam -- Ludum Dare 33 -- and we came up with the... uh... Japanese parody, if you want to call it, called Oni Yu Can Scare Them. The sound effects still get me laughing madly to this day.

Elsewhere, I've been writing for the Kingdom Hearts Wiki magazine project, and it has led to some reflective pieces from me. At least, it helps me brush up my writing.

I'd also started a collaboration thread for an intended game called Sheol, and I hope to add more details to it soon.

But most importantly, this year saw me and 119 others get involved in the NG 20th Anniversary Collab. I have been credited with the initial idea -- I still maintain that @Deshiel sowed the seeds, and I fleshed the idea out so that we could at least have something to go by. The project went into the capable leadership of @Whirlguy and @TharosTheDragon, and I am happy to see it finished.

Also, this may or may not have come as a surprise to you. It certainly came as a surprise to me when it was first told to me. I have been made audio moderator, as evidenced by the change of aura on my level icon. I'd been tasked with taking care of the Geometry Dash problem, among other things.

I guess I quite like it. I like helping where I can. That's all I know.

With the appeal date scheduled for 7 January 2016, I'm going to keep my head up, and keep positive and keep the prayers going.

Fourteen minutes have passed since the start of this post till now. I'd better end it here before I get carried away with typing. I can get that way sometimes. Farewell, 2015. You brought out the worst, and perhaps the best in me, yet. I am apprehensive about the new year, but I pray that God give me the strength to bear it.

Christmas gifts from Seán and his mother, meep! <3 Uh. To say nothing about the oodles of chocolate and sweets that I received.

(The Zildjian sticks are 7As, for those who are curious about their size.)

I am shattered. Two Christmas Masses, vocal and percussion duty. I cannot imagine what it'd be like for the altar servers and everyone else who participated in every single Mass for Christmas besides. Time to enjoy the rest of the day, meep.

Happy Christmas, everyone. Regardless of whether or not you celebrate it, I hope you have a peaceful day today. My thoughts and prayers go out especially to those who aren't having a good Christmas due to hunger, destitution, loss of family members, depression, loneliness, sickness, whatever. I'm bearing that burden along with you all this year (just as I did last year) -- and I am with you in spirit.

To those who wish to read my thoughts, carry on. To those who wish to stop here, feel free to close the page right now.

The tribunal has set a new date for this asylum appeal, i.e. 7 January 2016. There seems to be a greater degree of confidence in my case than ever before. Yet, because my neck's on the line, I cannot help but feel scared at times.

I'll be drumming at the vigil Mass today, as well as the daytime Mass tomorrow. <3 I hope that it may somehow be used to bring joy to those who are present, especially those who come to Mass only on so-called 'days of obligation' -- Easter, Christmas etc.

Talking about the Mass and about bringing people joy makes me think about something very dear to my heart.

Regardless of who you are or what you believe in, those of you who have proven respectful have had good dialogues with me without necessarily understanding, or agreeing -- but without shutting me off. You have treated me with great dignity -- which is much more than can be said for a good bit of people around me. When I shared my dreams with you, you encouraged them, despite them being otherwise shunned and rejected by the vast majority of people. And most of all, when I told you about my situation, you never rejected me. I just want to say, thank you. You know who you are, and you have made my struggles bearable. You have put a smile on my face, and helped me to lift my crosses with joy.

I'm back in Preston after a long fecking day in Manchester with my friends who had also come as witnesses. As the title suggests, the asylum appeal hearing has been adjourned, again.

I am glad to be home and while everyone believes in me and in this case, I cannot help but feel a little upset. I'd been dreading this day so much; I'd been so nervous and I'd fallen sick because of that very same nervousness.

It's no one's fault this time. The legal counsel who was meant to represent me today took ill. At any rate, here's hoping that the best happens. I'll keep on praying and watching. Beyond that, Seán, my friends and I, we've all done everything we can.

This time tomorrow, Seán and I will be in Manchester with a few other friends of ours. Thursday, the 17th, is the long-awaited appeal I've got going against the Home Office. I ask for your prayers and/or good thoughts; I would appreciate as many of you being with me in spirit on Thursday.

Those of you who wonder what this appeal is about, kindly read this earlier post of mine.

For this reason and this reason alone, try as I might to finish up my recordings, I cannot. Apologies to @Ceevro, @Step and @Bosa -- I'd wanted to fulfil these obligations and I'd begun recording in my usual home setup, only to be seized by panic and fear. Also apologies to @frootza, the person to whom I was meant to gift my Christmas song. I think it'd be a gift enough for me just to be safe and by Seán's side, always.

Those of you who have Supporter status can now view the first of my recordings from Soundskills -- the studio run by Lancashire County Council which is not far from my place. It is a rehash of a 2009 song of mine, Somewhere Out There, for which the original isn't on Newgrounds.

For this rehash, I did vocals, keyboard and drums. Two friends helped me on lead and rhythm guitar, and bass. The song was finished last week, but now I have a version which is ready to listen. I hope to meet these friends and ask them, this coming Tuesday, if they're alright with publishing this audio project. Until further notice, this isn't going to be published.

Two of my pieces are in the Harris Open -- you've heard me talk about this last year. My mind is just too shot to take photos or even appreciate that my art is there.

One of the pieces now in the Harris for this exhibition is Sweet Regina, a piece which was intended for @ReNaeNae's Bee Creative contest in September last year. Hopefully there'll be a time where my mind recovers from whatever it's going through, and hopefully I may be able to share pictures with you all. This time, I didn't enter as Annette "Troisnyx" Singh -- I entered simply as Troisnyx.

The last post I put up seems to be quite favoured. Very well, I will dance and accompany myself on the drum -- whether this will comprise one single takes or two separate takes, I'll have to think it over, but I think I'd best start practising! Thanks for all the support you've given me, everyone.

Incidentally, the 20th Anniversary Collaboration, which has been released on Thanksgiving, caused a spike in the number of fans (again, for lack of a better word). Last night I did a headcount of the number of people who were credited on the sidebar of this mega-collaboration. I don't know if I counted correctly, but there were 119 people involved in this thing. ONE HUNDRED AND NINETEEN. WOW. <3

Why am I talking about this project as if it were incidental to my last post? Well, it seems I got quite a lot of support with this idea, all in all. When @Deshiel sowed the seeds by saying, 'hey, let's make a collab for the 20th Anniversary,' I thought of how it could go. I took inspiration from Nanairo no Nico Nico Douga, a collaboration which went viral on YouTube -- possibly the most famous of the collabs from NicoNico altogether. It was a matter of thinking what each side of the portal could do.

The meat of the work was done in the summer -- at least, the Continue the Song Game was being hosted in the Audio Forums over the summer, and that would pave the way for the animators to do stuff. By that point I was preparing for my appeal against the Home Office (you know, the whole asylum thing), which was initially scheduled for 1 July. I was shackled with terror and all manner of nightmares, among other things. Seán and I did everything we could to get a strong case against the Home Office, and I couldn't take charge of it. The project went to @Whirlguy's capable hands, with programming input by @TharosTheDragon.

Some time later I was approached by Whirlguy, who asked me if I was up for composing the credits theme for the 20th Anniversary Collaboration. He didn't want to leave me out of this. I was touched -- by that point I was quite pleased to leave it aside -- and I said yes, and remade A Beginner's Harp Improv into the song it is now.

One or two people have reported back to me saying they nearly teared up at the credits. It's not fully my doing -- it's also the deed of at least 119, if not more, people who brought all that content to us. I'm just glad it's done. While there are some parts I wouldn't condone, I still recommend you take a look anyway, just to see the amount of hard work that has been put into this mega-project.

To end today, I'd just like to share a little anecdote which will appear quite nice to Audio Forum regulars... I hope... ^_^

@Camoshark and @Jiimaan are currently touring parts of Britain, going off the beaten paths, exploring and meeting people, and seeing the sights. Over yesterday and today the two of them were in Preston, and Seán (@IrishChieftain) and I had them. It was wonderful. The weather was horrible because Preston's been on the receiving end of two storms, and honestly, 50 mph winds are not a common occurrence in these parts -- but the four of us were pushed around by it quite a bit.

We had a jam and got to know each other a lot better over yesterday, shared jokes and anecdotes, and this morning, Seán and I took them to our little, humble, familiar hangouts -- the Harris museum, the Miller Arcade and St Wilfrid's Church, which I proudly call "my second home." The Harris was where my art was first exhibited, last year. As for St Wilfrid's... some of you may have seen part of the interior of it -- at least the organ loft -- from any videos of me playing timpani that I'd linked in my music thread on the Audio Forum.

It was absolutely lovely meeting them and hearing their stories, and in general having them.

Here, have a photo.

From left: Camoshark, Jiimaan, myself and Seán. I still maintain that the camera doesn't like me.

Would you like to see Troisnyx dancing to the beat of her own drum -- quite literally?

This is something I've always wanted to do, but have not yet mustered the confidence to do. But if you folks say yes... then I'm not sure when, but I'll do it, and fine-tune everything down to visual appeal -- the clothes, the video recordings... And I'll commit to it and practise as long as my body allows me, and all that good stuff. <3

Apparently I hold even crappy games in high esteem.

Those of you who are at least partly familiar with From Software ought to look up a PlayStation 2 game called Forever Kingdom, which this piece of artwork is fanart of. I don't know why, but it certainly did draw me in despite all its flaws.

Oh also, attention @Phyrnna, since your character namesake makes an appearance here. Hope you like it. <3 In the original Japanese version of this game, the hoop-wielding protagonist in the centre is called Fillna, and shares the exact same pronunciation as Phyrnna's name -- Firuna (フィルナ). I don't know which came first, but to me, it doesn't matter -- I like both of them very much.

I'd like to begin this news post with an announcement that the picture above is a remake of this image. Regardless of where this is going, this is a drawing of something that I hold very special to me. It is catharsis, considering my past. The details are largely missing, but I do intend to put them in.

The title of this post comes from George Orwell's 1984. Part of this title will figure on the blank signpost in this drawing, possibly in a language other than English, for heightened effect.

With 20 hours to go and only £5,900+ raised, the Kickstarter for Song of the Firefly is bound to fail, unless a miracle happens with the funding. At any rate, I do not blame anyone for this. Instead, I want to thank those of you who were able to fund this thing, even if it was a little bit. Every little bit did help us, in that it gave us a slight glimmer of hope.

It's understandable that funds will likely not go there because right now, there are more life-threatening causes, one of which we knew about just the day before yesterday. But there are other things which I do not yet know about.

I am gutted, yes. Don't worry, I'm used to failure. It's become a certainty for me.